It was you all along. Sigh.
Wish I could stay here just a little while longer while the world races on around me.
I'm tired. Had a long day today even though there were only a few lessons. We don't have GP for like two weeks cos Ms Yun's not well and is not coming to school. Maths was okay I suppose. GP lecture was hilarious. That lecturer was really engaging and he went through a RJC essay. It was mostly about topic sentences. Sat with Sharmini, Amirah and Ting En. During Civics, they discussed the Swine Flu and we also had Sex Education. I'm too tired to berate the school for wasting my time with such a useless session now.
Tomorrow I have Econs and Geog Formative Assessment. Haix. SHOOT ME! I'm so stressed now. Everytime I do my assignments or revision, I get overwhelmed at the load I have to mug for Prelim 1. People are wondering why I'm so scared for JUST prelims. Well, that's my dateline. I HAVE to pass prelims to stay on in school to continue to A's. Or I'm a goner. I hate it when certain adults come to me and ask "How is school coming along?" Cos when I say it's tough and I'm under a lot of stress, they say "It's ok. Just study hard. You can do it. Prelims are no big deal." HELLO! The school places so much emphasis on our prelims. If I don't do well, they are gonna ask me to reconsider my decision to take A's! That's what they have been doing the past few years. My friends should know. This is worse than me giving up. The school basically encourages you to quit! I need to prove certain people I'm capable of studying and doing well.
But the fight is tiring me out big-time. Back are the eye-bags, tears of frustration, short attention span, short tempers, restless nights spent tossing and turning, unable to sleep with the suffocating stress. Well, I better go prepare for my econs FA tomorrow. Or I'll get screwed for my incapability to Pass econs. Geog FA is after school. Mdm Gowri is only going to teach the friday consultation group during break. Then she is going to test us after school. Wonderful huh? Before I plunge into a tirade of school life, I shall go off. Nights all.
Loves,
Vithya
8:10 PM
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