I went up to my grandma's place just now. She asked me how was I coping with my studies and all. She's worried about me. She thinks I might let go my studies cos I get affected by everything that's happening. She told me to just work hard and to ignore whatever negative things that happen. She said that things happen for a reason and that I have to learn from mistakes. That is what makes me a better person. This conversation set me thinking. Last year, I made oh so many bad decisions, and everything just went haywire. Given a chance to go back in time, I know things would have turned out better. But let's just face it. There's no such thing as time travel. So I've learnt to live with my decisions. I dunno what to do now. Even though I'm trying so hard to amend some mistakes, there are some people who just won't let me show it. These people insist on pointing out my errors again and again. It sucks big time. How am I to prove that I've changed when they insist that I have not? It so doesn't feel like a new year. On new year day itself, my family had a row. As usual, I was caught in between. We didn't go anywhere except to mustafa to buy some last minute school things. However, I've made up my mind. I am going to make my own decisions and do things my way(as far as I can). No I'm not imitating Her. I just wnat to be me.
Those who have no idea what I'm talking about, well, get to know me. Maybe you'll understand.
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